Guess it’s just something we’ll never agree on the same page for now.
Time is really precious. It’s ticking away even when we’re not conscious of it. Sometimes when I’m really pessimistic, I would think that time is cruel.
Then again, there are the sunny days. Days when I feel, “Okay, time’s a healer.” Time attempts to help people filter certain memories from the daily conscious living. After all, how we view time, it’s just a perspective at the end of the day.
And now, it’s like I can hear the clock ticking in my head after countless reflection on how I spent my time in the past. It’s not like I’m regretting all of it, you are right, there were many many happy times.
It’s just that, to me now, it’s an important asset. A resource. I know you’d think I sound super technical and all so theoretical again about all these, but I really feel there should be a change in the way I allocate my time into things I do in my life to achieve what I want to do. I don’t want to just go with the flow just because our friends around are doing so, and then expect for things I want in life to just drop from the sky. I don’t think that’s gonna happen if I don’t try to make it happen.
And yes, of course, to spend this limited time with only a few selected people who truly matter to me. You can say that I’m super selfish or self-centered. You can say I’m unable to establish close friendships with many people around. You can say that I’m bloody selective, extremely anal in choosing who I spend my time and hang out with.
But actually after much thinking, I still think I am doing what I feel I should be doing (for now). I still feel we should prioritize our social circle. It’s something like knowing how to say NO when we need to because of other more important things to be done. We can’t possibly say Yes to everything and everyone. To be honest, I think that’s very unrealistic to achieve.
I am not saying you’re wrong either. Cause perhaps you’re right in your own way, that one day I may just look back and realize that I should be doing something else etc etc, I don’t know. And yes you’re right too, by the time the day comes, the people I spend less time with now “may not stay around anymore”.
Then okay, when the day comes, I would know if I am making a bad choice right now. I’ll forever be learning how to do it better.
